euphoria

2009-07-01T20:04:00.001-07:00

Changes are inevitable. i've moved people. Ask me personally for the link(:
MUGGING!!!!

2009-07-01T19:06:00.000-07:00

initially i thought it would be better for us to stay at home to do hbl
but instead, never would i think about the tonnes of homework they're going to pile us up with.
hello teachers, we do have study for prelims too!!!
did an english essay at 7.30a.m this morning. so now trying to finish a chem paper, hopefully by 12noon so i can finally study my biology!!!
argh, bio is driving me mad, what will happen during exams?
i really cant imagine!):
ah, help someone save us from the homework we are all drowning in!:C
i guess i ll flunk prelim one alot.
but i pray not.
magneisum, flourine atoms molecule protons whatsoever you're really driving me insane!!!
haha, okay a perfect place to rant my frustrations!
i dont lyk the internet cos i ll deifinitely go to somewhere else and surf the net ltr.
so much for a one week extra hols
whatever it is, i shall not care anyth that has got to do with anybody else except my friends.
i seriously got enough of caring other people, is like poking my long nose into other people's affairs, okay maybe my nose is not long but...
is lyk while you are concern for other people, the other party just slammeed your care into your face, HAHA!!!
so ironic, okay, today is a bad day.
i'm just frikking pissed off with myself.

2009-06-27T00:45:00.001-07:00

all the best for performance, guzheng people.

i just need a time
thinking of buying an air ticked and fly str to somewhere nice.
is it better?
i never know unless i try.
i hurt you but you hurt me too.
im sorry and you are too.
what's there left to say?
except an empty silence and despair plus disappointment in the two strangers who met up and fell in love and grew apart again.
is always the same, aint it?
it always end this way.
now i know why women hate to get married
cos obviously affairs of the heart stink

2009-04-24T03:51:00.000-07:00

i cried again.
it's hard for me to accept changes
and yet there's uncountable changes in life.
i wish i can go on,
instead of being stuck here all the time.
i wish i wish, yet none of them ever do come true.
i wish that nothing will ever change.
what's happening.
if the guy i love no longer is the one last time

guzheng members, i love you guys:D
exceptionally happy that we got a gold

2009-04-04T04:51:00.000-07:00

had guzheng again
felt really tired,dragged myself up from slumberland at 7, and reached at 8.10 like that, immensely glad that im not late(:
WHOO-HOO
happily ban down guzheng nd tiao yin, then eileen say have to have punishment for those who are late.
late previously,haha!
so no choice either do 100 squats, 50 pushups or 200 star jumps.
like which crazy people will do star jump luhs please.
pushups stupid, guzheng use hand play do pushup confirm die.
haha!so i pick squats.
which i had a really hard time doing and till now, my leg still completely sore.
serves me right, blur till late for 18mins.
then must round up
sian diao.
LOL!
start doing, completely cannot take it.
never exercise or something.
last one, wow damn happy
then i realise push myself too far, cant even walk.stand then drop again.WTH!
haha! dont know why start crying, lol,
then zhirong keep saying bend your head bend your head
then act like doc like that
then ask elaine give me water. LOL
stupid can
i feel....
HAHA!!!!
then decide sit in front of everybody damn freaking paiseh.
so walk back
walk stumble aha, fell down again.
then suan le, crawl halfway
then stand up walk back.
LOL
quite hilarious if think back.
LOL
nd stacey gave me tissue:DDDD
she's nice girl, sit down sharmaine was like you okay
haha!at least somebody care right???

blahs, i miss bridget immensely.
how i wish syf would end fast and i would be out quickly.
i still love the time in guzheng when w xiaoman that batch
dont know why, just feel they handle things much better than us.
LOL:P

no matter! LET's all aim for a GOLD(:

2009-03-19T07:34:00.000-07:00

it's been ages i guess before i came in again.

syf on the 20th april, at 4.15 pm?

strange huh

hopefully its not a bad premonition.

syf showcase on wed, did terribly.

was unbelievably angry with the sec 2 juniors and gave them a good thrashing, tgt w cheryl.

felt a little guilty later, but what choices do i have when they play like that?

slight improvement, tho not v drastic.

hopefully hopefully everyth will be alright:D

quarreled again.

in a super foul mood.

and i'm really tired. i guess everyone in guzheng are, especially my poor di san guzheng whom i made them came earlier for quite some time.

whoever reading this, practice alright(:

love you guys, tho you guys are bad bad sometimes:D

guzheng tmr again at 7.30 a.m

hougang sec coming i think.

again, wish tmr everyth would be okay:D

2009-02-14T20:45:00.000-08:00

battled and bruised i left.
leaving myself wallowing in self- agony.
i did not know why did i permit myself to be tortured,
even though i knew how it will inevitably end

it started off with a relatively light note
but ended with a sinking heart.
the stark contrast between the beginning and the end
landed me into a plight that i would never understand.

i weeped. i sobbed
but it did not relieve me of the intense pain i feel.
none helps, nothing helps with that bout of disappointment deep down in me
i strived forth, to recover from the wounds in my heart.
but wounds and scars always come together in pairs

if love is a battle
i would rather not love anymore.
for scars that would never heal will always remind you,
of the suffering that you permit yourself to be let through.

2009-01-11T06:44:00.001-08:00

it took all my willpower to ask you t leave.
now im at a loss of what t do

im sorry

2009-01-09T07:28:00.000-08:00

it took me alot of courage to tell you what i've told you.
do you ever think is that easy for me?
i know you find many faults in me, but ain't everyone imperfect?
you can ask the friends beside me, kezia hejun bridget anybody.
what was i doing when you won't around, what did i told them.
sometimes, my life is so accumstomed t you, that i'm really reluctant t change it around.

i just tried to tell you how i feel
nd yet, you just assume that you were the only one feeling rather sad/ whatever emotions you felt?
dont you know, a relationship always afffects both parties no matter what.

You just ranted at me, nd said what i said t you previously.
circumstances have changed, nd im really sorry for going back on what i've said.
i guess that was the lie you were talking about.
i told you i was sorry, i really am.
yet you said you dont know what i treated you as.
hah. if you would like to think i treat you as garbage,
then i really have nothing else left to say.

we haven't even yet to part, yet things are alr in a huge mess
i really really can't think what will happen then.

i told you i would never regret.
i dont think i ever will.

but please, dont make it any harder on me and yourself
im sorry.

2009-01-09T06:37:00.001-08:00

i felt sad momentarily and decide that ranting it here will help alot.

happiness and sadness coexist.
a person who gave you loads of happiness is also able to give you the same amount of sadness.
乐极生悲，我也终于知道它的意思了。

went to ngee ann poly, saw jade.
she was damn shocked to see me there, nd her first question was fairly rude, no doubts about that:D
chatted awhile nd went back to be hejun and people.
not really vvv boring just that my leg hurts from too much walking

2008-12-05T19:35:00.000-08:00

i'm a person who loves to have my own space.
yet, you keep instructing me what t do.
i know you have my best interests at heart.
but do you know how i feel?

you probably dont.

2008-12-05T19:06:00.000-08:00

read who moved my cheese
v meaningful book
made me think lots of things.

went grandma's house ystd
felt extremely bored
msged kimyet awhile
hahas:DDD
nd he tried to explain things to me!
well,at least he's nice.
asked me if im planning 6tru outings.
lol! jade's planning anyways
just doing the calling:D

我非常想你，
但同时又感到非常反感。
这究竟是爱，是恨？

2008-12-01T01:49:00.000-08:00

yiphee:Dseeing darling tmr(:

LOL

just finished my geography notes.

took me ages can to finish one miserable chapter.

doing ss notes:D

bye(:

2008-11-28T01:39:00.000-08:00

hi guys i decided to change everything
sorry for the inconvenience caused:D

decided not to go for the musical thing
cos my poor ass hurts madly:D
from the falling down of the staircase(:
HAHAS!maybe its a teeny-weeny bit btr,but hahas.whatever:D
plus hejun kezia clement nd boyfr all fly until dont know go where.
nd nd pohshen not going:D

enough of schools.im bored:(
writing geography notes nd blog hopping.
still rmbr the chalet plan a plan b thing.hahahs:D
we were afraid that bl and raj got drunk.
so we 7 girls came up witha ultra funny stupid plan
plan A:kick their there.
plan B:use tongs pull their leg hair!
hahas,the plans were came up by me!:D
then eileen started passing tongs around.
laughs!(:its funny can:P
blahs,stupid hejun flew to china alr:(
but she say i got souveniers:D(see!i'm so realistic:D
nd she borrowed luggage from me!:D
hahahs,hopefully the luggage not dragged in some dirt or something.
knowing her.
nah,just kidding:D

im freaking bored.
dont even know when i started crapping here.
P.s:the tagboard was a repetition from previous previous.